Maybe you're right. I don't know, I've always wondered: if I was born looking more like her, so people wouldn't have been able to see me and know she had an affair, would she has disliked me so much? Or if I had acted more human, would things have been different? [There's a lot of self-blame, there. Unprocessed pain from years of not knowing how to discuss this still lingers after all this time.]

I wonder if she regrets any of the things she did.