There are times I wish I hadn't been born as well, because then my mother would still be alive. But if that had been the case, the people who love me would have never had that chance. That's what I remind myself to make it easier to keep going forward.

As for your alternate form, I can assure you that I've seen much stranger. Even aside from my own Noise form, I've encountered entities that bear a passing resemblance at most to any mundane creatures.