THE IC ANON MEME

[serrata]

THE IC ANON MEME

• Make an anonymous post with a question or topic of discussion. Or, alternatively, make a blank post with your character.


• Respond to other comments anonymously but ICly.


• Say whatever your character wants to say but never dared in person.


• ???


• Profit.

Comments

NAP GRANDPA

[founderinglight]

[Time to get yelled at by all the Airlockeds]

[(Anonymous)]

top 5 nap spots around the station in order of most to least comfortable?

[founderinglight]

Hmm.

1. The large couch on the east side of the common room.
2. The lounge chairs on the deck that allow you to stretch out.
3. The brown armchair in the library's central room.
4. The bench outside the greenhouse doors and a little to the left down the hall, the one with the leather upholstery and no back.

Beyond that, I prefer to use my own chair, really.

[(Anonymous)]

But when you use your own chair, where do you put the chair?

[founderinglight]

Wherever I happen to be at the time, so long as it's relatively out of the way.

[Anon you think more highly of his choice of nap positions than he... actually cares.]

[(Anonymous)]

An honest question: how do you live with yourself?

[founderinglight]

[Now that's more like what he expected.]

Because I am alive.

And, by being alive, I have the chance to make the world a little better for the people I care about.

It isn't about earning forgiveness or righting some cosmic scale. I don't seek to do either of those things - they're impossible, and getting caught up in them won't do any good.

It is simply that the dead can do nothing, and so I will keep living.

[(Anonymous)]

And that's enough to assuage your guilt?

[founderinglight]

That, and the knowledge that all the guilt in the world won't change that I was played for a goddamn fool.

[Hey anon did you know... it was a Mistake.]

The guilt will always be there. But I won't allow it to control me. That's not fair to me or anyone else.

[(Anonymous)]

How long did it take you to regret things?

Was it somewhere around the dozen executions mark, or was it later?

1/2

[founderinglight]

The executions, specifically?

There was no reason to regret until I realized that it was, in fact, Ardyn that I had so tortured, and not simply a monster wearing his skin.

So the question you're asking really is, when did I realize it was him?

[founderinglight]

...I first began to have the feeling the moment he walked into the throne room before Regis - the first time he'd actually revealed himself to any member of the line since my time. But I didn't acknowledge the thought. It hurt too much to bear.

It was at Altissia that I could deny it no longer. I will remember that moment for all of eternity. I was such a fool.

[(Anonymous)]

...What were you thinking, seeing him again? Either time.

[founderinglight]

...It hurt. Both times, I just felt helpless. A witness who could contribute nothing.

He was so much himself in that throne room - dramatic, haven't-a-care - it warmed my heart even as it broke. I think that if he had been any less himself, I would have denied it less. But that he was gone was a foundation of the world I had tenuously managed to rebuild from the wreckage, and I couldn't allow myself to even think it.

...Altissia simply broke me. In a gesture that he probably thought nothing of, that Ignis hardly even registered -

Daemons can't warp. No matter how powerful they are, and there are some with similar abilities, but the power of our blood, the power of the light in it - it isn't possible for a daemon to use.

And so there could be no doubt or denial any further, especially not for me, when I grew up seeing that color as the other half of my own. And if he was my brother then, then he always had been.

[(Anonymous)]

I don't dislike you. But if you do do something...

[founderinglight]

You're not the most successful at being ominous, you know, my dear whichever-relative-you-probably-are.

I have neither desire nor intent to hurt anyone. But if it becomes necessary, I will defend myself to the fullest extent of my abilities. I have no intention of going quietly back to death any time soon.

Fair?

[(Anonymous)]

Okay. It probably won't come to that. Because you seem like you're telling the truth.

[founderinglight]

The truth is about all I have left to my name. I'm quite fortunate that it is one of those things not diminished by being shared.

[(Anonymous)]

Why can't you leave things alone?

[founderinglight]

Because leaving things alone - specifically, leaving Ardyn alone when I had the feeling he was hiding something from me - was a major contributing factor to all of this mess, and I might still have just a few hang-ups about it.

And also because I can't stand having people believe things about me that are so wrong. If I am to be hated for myself, then I can accept that. But I cannot stand to be made a villain based upon the words of someone who, by his own accounting, remembers not a damn thing about me.

I want the truth known and the record set straight, at least as much as it ever can be. I don't think that's such an awful thing to want.